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I honestly don't know if it because we're all quarantined but i am getting so easily agitated, it's like crazy tbh. It's also not good that im always this angry, its going to be Ramadan soon i really shldnt be wanting to strangle everyone every 5 mins.

Everything pisses me off these days. Door not being fully closed, people making repetitive small talk, staring- God can people stop staring... But honestly if i do that count to 10 before talking, i wont blow up- wont go all crazy on them but like the anger just cools down but the next time im mad the anger boils up twice as fast as the first time and i have to quickly do that count to 10 before i speak shit or ill like end up sayin a bunch of like kjvbhncdjkx shit.

I kinda know where this anger stems from but like i should have like the "ability" at my age now to change it and use the energy elsewhere and what not but i dont know ive just been acceptin this anger issue as my fate and now its wayy too ingrained in me :") and its rlly rlly hard to let go of my anger and all but i rlly shld shldnt i?